I’m an Anxious Yogi. I’m also a wayward son from Kansas which was the original title for my blog. I’m still in my 50’s, still consider travel an adventure, and am still searching for happiness and meaning. In 2016, I was in a state of transformation and self-improvement so I joined a “Transformation and Yoga Teacher’s Training” program in my adopted hometown of Dubuque. I was also on medication for depression and anxiety throughout the entire year. Depression has been a recurring theme in my life and my understanding and awareness of what anxiety is and how it affects me made 2015 a tough year for me. So while I learned a lot about yoga and its healing and transformative powers in 2016, I was also battling anxiety and depression. Then in 2017, I decided to try and cope with my depression and anxiety without medication. What I learned from yoga, my reading, and my study of the mind and body has led me to approach my writing with a new vigor. I’ve redone my blog a little bit and my intention is to share my journey as I learn more about yoga and myself as a yogi and writer.
I waited until I was 53 to take charge of my health and my nutrition. Before then I seemed to always be taking care of someone else. I raised two daughters, worked hard at my job(s), and seemed to always be too busy to worry about proper nutrition and exercise. I was either at work, driving to and from work, going through a drive-thru to get my next meal, or at home. By January of 2014, I was almost 270 pounds, sick more than I wanted to be, and generally miserable when I wasn’t at work. To top it off, I had no social life, few friends, and never seemed to do anything exciting and fun.
In January of 2014, after constant urging of my oldest daughter, I started a program called Farrell’s Extreme Bodyshaping or as most of us FIT members call it FXB. It involved cardio kickboxing three times a week, resistance training three times a week, and nutrition education which included eating six balanced meals a day with proteins, carbs, and healthy fats. You can find out more about this program here.
After my 10 week challenge with FXB I committed to a one year challenge. I continued to transform my health and my life. I took up running. I did a mud run. I began living for myself and enjoying life a lot more. I’m no longer 264.4 pounds (my weight the day I did my initial testing with FXB) and I’m in the best shape of my life. I’ve been running consistently for about a year now and am training for my first half-marathon. I’m enjoying life and getting closer to that elusive goal of being happy.
This blog will be about my musings as a wayward son and hopefully readers will glean some good advice about fitness, nutrition, running and about finding happiness within yourself as you journey through life. While I hope my words resonate with those middle-aged readers trying to take control of their health, I know that my efforts and words have inspired others much younger than I. So I encourage anyone to read my blog and share it with others. I don’t want to pigeon-hole my audience to other gray-haired men over 50 who run like turtles and struggle to maintain muscle. The struggle to stay healthy and happy is pretty universal and whether you are a twenty something trying to get rid of your freshman 15 or a retired sixty something with a lot of time on your hands nothing I do should be too hard for you. You’re never too young or too old to change, to transform your health and your life. So carry on my wayward son!
“Carry on my wayward son
There’ll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don’t you cry no more”